Do you think this dream means that god has truly walked out on me for all the hate I have for him?

I truly belive that god has forsaken me, he killed my grilfriend in a cocaine over dose and didnt take me instead of her and ever since I have done all in my power to bring down him, his mane, and his word. Now last night i dremt i was in a forest and there was jesus standing with my grilfriend hugging her, as I tryed to reach out and take her hand he put up his hand and said she was hers now, then him and her walked toward a clearing in the forest where i couldnt fallow, as I tryed to get to her all he was doing was putting up his hand and laughing and telling me not yet. when I woke my face was covered in tears but it wasnt for her it was tears of rage for him for not letting me have her. so what do you think, do you think he's made it his bussiness to never let me and her be together again? he's taken her from me in my life and in my dreams, he will burn after I'm through with him in this life or the next.